说不出的痛 4/8/2010

昨晚说的都是气话.
如此的无情..
如此的痛..


By the way he talked to me.
I know. For sure.
He's letting go...and moving on.
Our 199 days together...was long to him.
Well...maybe it's solely because of what I did. What I am. What I have become.
He knows I care. but I had hurt him in the past. way too much.
I know he cared. but his actions made me doubt him. way too many times.



And whatever I do now, doesn't matter anymore.
It wouldn't change a thing anymore.


I was too sensitive.
And my one move... made him lose all hope.
All the love we had, we shared.


We were very fine before what happened.
I just had to.......



This is it...
Guess he won't feel anything anymore.
This pain....is just too real...
He once told me crying can never solve anything.

I don't want to see tears.
But they have been flowing since last night.
I need them to stop.
I want them to stop.
Because I know... he wouldn't cry for me anymore.
 



Right now,
I need to tell you that.

I am very sorry. Of every pain I had ever caused you.
I am very sorry, for all the broken dreams. For everything we ever planned and wished for.



With all my heart, I sincerely wish you the best!
=)


Whenever you need a friend, I will still be there.
I don't want you to hate me any further.
Because.... I couldn't possibly dislike you.


=)
Cheers!

Take care of yourself!  Big boy le :]