My dear friend

I thought of doing long, happy posts during the holidays.
To make up for what I've not been updating.

But all of a sudden, out of the blue,
You told me that the bond between us isn't strong enough.
Surprisingly, the words cut deeper than I thought.
I don't know what to say...you got me speechless, but still I admire your straightforwardness.
I adore you for your unique personality and ability in probably everything, you weren't my best friend yet, but certainly you already had a place in my heart. Even though what you said blew me away. You even made me tear up. But sometimes, crying makes me realise exactly how much I appreciate your presence, and how lucky I am to have met someone as great as you.

As much as I hate how this bothers me, I sincerely hope there is a way to save this friendship. I may be no one or just a mere friend to you, but just reviewing back from now to the first day I met you, you really are someone whom I wish could stay. You really are someone. =)
But..for the time being, I can just wait and hope. But if it doesn't resolve.....
Then, I wouldn't pursue it any further, and let time and fate do the job.
I just hope... that it wouldn't have to be that way.


I don't wanna lose anyone, anymore.

New life

=)
A short, sweet post xD
College soon.

I will miss my family and friends, dearly.
Even though I'm not really far from home. The place I'd be at still won't be home... Not without you guys.
Loads of stuff happening lately.
Got really awesome presents from friends who went for trips =)
THANK YOU PEOPLE! <3
Had movie day with my homies! :D  Mikey, Pay and Heng! :)
Chilled with Andy for 2 days in a week? lol   MOVIEEEEEE :D
fyi., I don't quite like The Tourist :P

Have been eating heap loads...
Which means TWO things for me---
ONE- I'm happy, therefore I'm eating a lot.
TWO- I have to start working out like mad and start losing weight D:

So much for New Year's resolutions ><
FAIL for now x) isshhh :P

I'm giving this post an abrupt ending =P
Suddenly lost the mood to blog any further.

OH I just realised it's the ninth! =O
Time flies =)
meh xD

All the best to everyone!! =D

31/12/2010

Back by popular demand? x)

So today is officially the last day of 2010. 

I would like to sum up everything that has happened! ...but you know I'm only human and that is IMPOSSIBLE!
I'll probably split the post into 3 parts  lol ><

I'll start with the various feelings. It's easier to say in mandarin which is 甜酸苦辣..

But it'll try to keep it as "english" as possible.  -_-

I've been through a lot in this year, well I'm pretty sure everyone has their story to tell, but this would probably be mostly about me. Well, this IS my blog aye? =)

I'll start from really bad, sickening feelings to the happiest moments of this year.  2010!

Hurt.

I'm pretty sure everyone has been through hurt more or less in a year. 

Whether you lost someone you love, your best friend, relative...

I'm pretty sure no one wants anyone they love to leave, but sometimes it's life and it's inevitable that time does it's job. And no matter how much you want time to turn back.. the person you love is already six feet below. What's left is the beautiful memories you once had with that loved one.

Well, this is a kind of hurt, which everyone does NOT want to go through...

I went through hurt over and over again. At certain times, I still pine, deep down inside .. pining for their return, longing to have maybe JUST another day, for me to spend with them and tell them how I really feel inside.. and how I love them.

If only I had another day...

Anxiety.
When I was studying for the SPM.
I don't know about you guys. But I normally only feel pressured a day or two before the actual examination =\
Yeah, I'm lazy. x)  I won't disagree.
But the anxiety normally occurs after I've passed up my paper -__- oh the irony ><

Fear.
When I knew something was not right in several events.
The fear of losing someone. The fear of failing a test. The fear of disappointing my parents. The fear of injuries.


Happy, joyful.
When I am happy, I would put on the brightest smile on my face. I looked back and realised. I didn't capture down many of such moments. =)  Or rather, the things that really made me smile has faded from my memory, pale as ink.. Right now, no matter how I think back of certain events... I don't seem to feel flattered or happy anymore, well maybe it was because more poison was spilled on the beautiful, fragile memory.. was too much to even taste the sweetness anymore.
I found refuge with my gang, my buddies, my homies!
I went out with them, had group studies with them, chatted with them and I didn't care whether they treated me more to a brother rather than just a female friend! Well, these people officially changed my mundane routine and slowly but certainly dragged me out from..hell =)
And never leaving out my family, for they have supported me throughout whatever and showed me undying love.

I'm pretty sure everyone loves surprises, gifts or anything like that. =)
I've got loads of presents this year. I've met amazing, wonderful people, and that to me already is a great gift!
I've even teared up just looking at what people wrote to me, how they feel about me, in facebook, in their blogs, wherever =)  They sincerely touched me with their truthful words, I didn't feel a hint of sarcasm at all! x)

To sum up 2010 in words,
It was an amazing year overall. I've learned many many many things through experience.. it doesn't feel good at all. But at least it has made a permanent mark which would constantly remind me to set my priorities straight! =)   I never regretted anything, and hopefully I won't. You've probably heard this a million times but, I truly understand the definition of "life goes on"..for time waits for no man. And, if you want something done, you gotta do it yourself.
I apologise if I have ever crossed you in anyway in 2010.
And to the haters, if you don't like me, you can just tick off =)  Your face just hurts my eyes.

Well, thank you everyone! =P

Happy New Year =) 
2011!!  

♥

I ended 2010 well! ♥ I might as well start 2011 even better ;)