Love bipolar .... ='(

You asked me ,why did you look so sweet back then? whats wrong with now? I know I don't look as good,energised or maybe even pretty when I was at that moment.
Give me time. All I need, is time.
I try. Each and every day.
I wasn't asked to look like this.
I never wanted to be this way.
I blame myself, and the hatred I have for myself is growing day by day with the pressure I get.



It's time for a drastic change.


 
~I wanted to tell you why I turned so dark all of a sudden, why I sprained my ankle, and why I look so freaking tired everyday. But...you got mad at me when I told you the reason to the first why. I couldn't continue. You would get mad at me, even more.
 
 
You may think I'm stupid for certain reasons. You may think I'm childish.
You may think I'm extremely annoying. You may even feel tired of me.
But.....
Sometimes.... you should see things...deep. And not on the surface. For you may never be able to grasp the real reason.
....
 
 
 
This time, it is I who screwed things up.
No one to blame, but myself.
I should have known better.
 
I know he doesn't feel the same anymore.
 
zhe4 gan3 jue2 yi3 jing1 bu2 dui4....
wo3 nu3 li4 zai4 wan2 hui3.
 
 
 
 
*it's a damn...cold night........*
I looked as you...cycled away.

Not bad, 2nd post for the day.

Last blog as a 16 year-old.

Turning 17 tomorrow.
Mid-year exam starting tomorrow.
Obviously, I can't study.
Can't really be bothered. I'd rather blog to ease my mind

I could have accepted the many offers to throw me a "Turning 17 birthday BASH"  but I turned them down.
Why the hell did I do that?
Easy. I promised a certain someone I won't party,drink,hang out with the Whites.
When did I start to listen to someone?  I have no idea.


I could be by the beach, drinking Magarita while having someone barbeque for me.
haix. so retarded.


I still remember a year ago... Mom and Dad brought me to Tao to celebrate my bday.
I looked back. and I realised...    I haven't had anyone celebrate my bday with me, except my parents.
This year could have been an exception. But I declined.
Now, talking to myself, writing a blog, bored and warm( the weather kills).
I feel alone.
Like I'm oblivious to the world.
to him.


Sometimes......even someone as strong....as me. Can falter..
I feel like "the darling buds of May" from Sonnet 18.
Only temporary, only for show.


Sick and tired of waiting.
He went...just like that, without even telling me.
Just great. How thoughtful of him.





*Hazel just posted a video on my Facebook profile.... well... All I can say that is....  I look seriously ugly when I cry ='(   T_T
haix..   Loves you.






Will be welcoming 17... soon.
Cheers.
I hope I'll be ok <3
All the best to everyone x

Sarcasm,exuded,extremely evident.

The "sizzle" on the surface is never as important as the "substace" beneath.

Looks aren't everything.   With sufficient education and experience. Making your way to the top wouldn't be that hard. Hindrances are inevitable. But well, if you're good enough. You wouldn't be afraid of a little competition by the insignificant minority.


Words can bring someone down, but hell...
I'm way past that point.
Numb? yeh i guess so.
Thinking that I'm BETTER than the ppl who have nothing else to do besides critisising? or even TRYING to make someone feel bad?
HELL YEAH I'm so much better than you. And I am proud of it.
Egoistic? to you it may be. To me, that's my pride.

You think I'm vulgar?Well, fuck you.
You think I'm mean? Just because I don't smile at you? Or just because I don't look at you? And you go around telling my....so called other half that I'm rude to you or some similar crap like that? Well do you tell him or rather report to him when I smile at you? When I greet you?  No right?  Now, move aside.
I don't need someone of the inferior to tell me that.
Hello, I'm Mildred.  Mildred Wong. I am NOT your typical chinese girl. So don't expect me to be one.
Because it'll never happen.



I may not be the ideal girlfriend.
I may not have the ideal looks.
I may not be as pretty or as petite as the people around.

I may have even made someone feel bad just because of how I look.
I'm seriously wondering if they've seen through me? well of course not, i don't even know them
LOL what a joke. You make fun of people because of how they look.
Will you shut up once you hear me talk? Once I get serious and really speak my mind?
Would you want to swallow back the words you purged out of fun?
Trust me.
You'll never get the chance. Because, you're just not worthy of even talking to me.



Stuck up?  Well, I have the reasons to be.








Try catching up. I don't mind you trying.






I'm so haughty at times. I just love it.

Happy Mother's Day!
to all the mothers out there.

And to my one and only.
<3

  Awwwww smile la mommy >.<
  (photo dated back to '09)
*Spell was so small back then...*




 I ❤ U  Mommy