Dad

Dad, I've never seen you so mad. Why didn't you just tell me...why did you keep all that shit boiling inside of you?
Pa, I'm not your baby girl anymore.
I'd just stick my middle finger to the world whenever I feel like it. I don't give a damn what people think.
You should know that it takes much more than words to bring me down. Only the people I care about can hurt me.
So pa..You're hurting me if you don't tell me how you feel. Why let it boil inside you?
I may seem immature to you, but you know, YOU out of everyone should know best, that I am not that easy.
I am a thinker in many ways.
I am just too lazy to do anything important.
I'm sorry I let you down. I didn't know it would affect you this much.
I know you've been really good to me for not losing it there and then.

I do not fall to others. Especially... people of such insignificance. Referring to some "bumps" on the road.
They are the least of my concern, and I can tell you that, they are nowhere close to what it takes.

I am that stuck up sometimes.
But you know dad... You know.. I've got friends.
We don't hang much anymore. but they're always there.


Munn is reassuring you that, I'll be ok.
As long as I'm willing, I will still be that silly girl.
But, when it comes a day, I feel that I shouldn't be treating myself this way.
You know what'll happen.


I was told that,
Work,studies should be my top priority instead of my feelings.
I am too sensitive,I was told.
I don't give people much more than a sideways glance,I was told.
I look too deeply into my feelings as I was told.




If I never had feelings,
If I were to be immune to all feelings.
I guess life would be kinda dull. And I wouldn't know how it feels like to hurt, to care, to love.
I learn with every step I take, every move I make.
Every emotion, I remember. I learn.
With every fall, I get stronger.

Pa, it's the art of living.


The loving are the daring.

I dare to risk it, to feel it.
I don't care what the outcome is, chances are that I may get what I deserve one day.
I've never asked for anything in return. I never will. 
I like giving. I like seeing people happy.
And for that, I sometimes forget about myself.

Pa, Don't worry. I'll outgrow this.
It's a stage of life. ;)
I'm still growing.
With time, i learn.



I love you for showing that you care.
You were mad at me, because you couldn't stand seeing your daughter like this.
I'm not good at expressing myself face-to-face. I even got in trouble for displaying the wrong facial expression at the wrong time.   seriously la  FML ==


But I know, I do go with words. Especially when I'm alone.
And when I speak my heart.

Treasure the love you receive above all.
It will survive long after your good health has vanished.

I just gotta love, sit, wait and watch.




Pa, 
I still rock. ;)
Chillax.