So today is officially the last day of 2010.
I would like to sum up everything that has happened! ...but you know I'm only human and that is IMPOSSIBLE!
I'll probably split the post into 3 parts lol ><
I'll probably split the post into 3 parts lol ><
I'll start with the various feelings. It's easier to say in mandarin which is 甜酸苦辣..
But it'll try to keep it as "english" as possible. -_-
I've been through a lot in this year, well I'm pretty sure everyone has their story to tell, but this would probably be mostly about me. Well, this IS my blog aye? =)
I'll start from really bad, sickening feelings to the happiest moments of this year. 2010!
Hurt.
I'm pretty sure everyone has been through hurt more or less in a year.
Whether you lost someone you love, your best friend, relative...
I'm pretty sure no one wants anyone they love to leave, but sometimes it's life and it's inevitable that time does it's job. And no matter how much you want time to turn back.. the person you love is already six feet below. What's left is the beautiful memories you once had with that loved one.
Well, this is a kind of hurt, which everyone does NOT want to go through...
I went through hurt over and over again. At certain times, I still pine, deep down inside .. pining for their return, longing to have maybe JUST another day, for me to spend with them and tell them how I really feel inside.. and how I love them.
If only I had another day...
Anxiety.
When I was studying for the SPM.
I don't know about you guys. But I normally only feel pressured a day or two before the actual examination =\
Yeah, I'm lazy. x) I won't disagree.
But the anxiety normally occurs after I've passed up my paper -__- oh the irony ><
Fear.
When I knew something was not right in several events.
The fear of losing someone. The fear of failing a test. The fear of disappointing my parents. The fear of injuries.
Happy, joyful.
When I am happy, I would put on the brightest smile on my face. I looked back and realised. I didn't capture down many of such moments. =) Or rather, the things that really made me smile has faded from my memory, pale as ink.. Right now, no matter how I think back of certain events... I don't seem to feel flattered or happy anymore, well maybe it was because more poison was spilled on the beautiful, fragile memory.. was too much to even taste the sweetness anymore.
I found refuge with my gang, my buddies, my homies!
I went out with them, had group studies with them, chatted with them and I didn't care whether they treated me more to a brother rather than just a female friend! Well, these people officially changed my mundane routine and slowly but certainly dragged me out from..hell =)
And never leaving out my family, for they have supported me throughout whatever and showed me undying love.
I'm pretty sure everyone loves surprises, gifts or anything like that. =)
I've got loads of presents this year. I've met amazing, wonderful people, and that to me already is a great gift!
I've even teared up just looking at what people wrote to me, how they feel about me, in facebook, in their blogs, wherever =) They sincerely touched me with their truthful words, I didn't feel a hint of sarcasm at all! x)
To sum up 2010 in words,
It was an amazing year overall. I've learned many many many things through experience.. it doesn't feel good at all. But at least it has made a permanent mark which would constantly remind me to set my priorities straight! =) I never regretted anything, and hopefully I won't. You've probably heard this a million times but, I truly understand the definition of "life goes on"..for time waits for no man. And, if you want something done, you gotta do it yourself.
I apologise if I have ever crossed you in anyway in 2010.
And to the haters, if you don't like me, you can just tick off =) Your face just hurts my eyes.
Well, thank you everyone! =P
Happy New Year =)
2011!!
When I knew something was not right in several events.
The fear of losing someone. The fear of failing a test. The fear of disappointing my parents. The fear of injuries.
Happy, joyful.
When I am happy, I would put on the brightest smile on my face. I looked back and realised. I didn't capture down many of such moments. =) Or rather, the things that really made me smile has faded from my memory, pale as ink.. Right now, no matter how I think back of certain events... I don't seem to feel flattered or happy anymore, well maybe it was because more poison was spilled on the beautiful, fragile memory.. was too much to even taste the sweetness anymore.
I found refuge with my gang, my buddies, my homies!
I went out with them, had group studies with them, chatted with them and I didn't care whether they treated me more to a brother rather than just a female friend! Well, these people officially changed my mundane routine and slowly but certainly dragged me out from..hell =)
And never leaving out my family, for they have supported me throughout whatever and showed me undying love.
I'm pretty sure everyone loves surprises, gifts or anything like that. =)
I've got loads of presents this year. I've met amazing, wonderful people, and that to me already is a great gift!
I've even teared up just looking at what people wrote to me, how they feel about me, in facebook, in their blogs, wherever =) They sincerely touched me with their truthful words, I didn't feel a hint of sarcasm at all! x)
To sum up 2010 in words,
It was an amazing year overall. I've learned many many many things through experience.. it doesn't feel good at all. But at least it has made a permanent mark which would constantly remind me to set my priorities straight! =) I never regretted anything, and hopefully I won't. You've probably heard this a million times but, I truly understand the definition of "life goes on"..for time waits for no man. And, if you want something done, you gotta do it yourself.
I apologise if I have ever crossed you in anyway in 2010.
And to the haters, if you don't like me, you can just tick off =) Your face just hurts my eyes.
Well, thank you everyone! =P
Happy New Year =)
2011!!
♥
I ended 2010 well! ♥ I might as well start 2011 even better ;)
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